Walking back up the hill in the snow and freezing, I heard someone walking behind me and I was like, "Ok, I'm not going to turn or acknowledge this person or even be human in the slightest at all because right now no one else cares so I don't either and I'm going to stop trying all this stuff, even if he talks to me I'm going to ignore him and not even think about it."
If you've heard me rave at all this week you probably know what I'm talking about in terms of being human and all.
But anyways, I heard him walking behind me, and as I began my ascent he said to me, "Quite slippery, huh?" And started up conversation with me.
So I talked with him as I climbed the hill. And that was it. That simple bit.
I'd rave about why this means just so much to me, but I don't feel like it. But it really, really did.
Then I was starting to think that maybe the night wasn't that bad after all, but then I was like, oh yeah, that was such a coincidence, like of course that would just happen on the night I'm discouraged and not caring.
Then I saw two bunnies outside my residence hall. Just chilling, in the snow.
I stood and watched them, and they watched me. And didn't leave or run or anything. I finally turned and went inside because the cold caught up again.
A sign, yes. Yes. Ugh. But I'd just much rather be in a bad mood, but I can't.
Doesn't change the fact that I got all prettied up and went out for absolutely nothing.
I'm just glad my roommate's out of town this weekend so at least I can just be alone the whole weekend. I'm sick of people. Hrmph.
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