did ya see the stars last night.

punctuation for a perfect poem. . . ugh.

i don't wanna do anything, ever. it's been so warm here and raining. raining rain raindrops raining rain rain raining. the campus is practically underwater. soggy and delightful, i love it-- don't get me wrong. it's february 10th and i'm already looking forward to may 10th. and may 15th, the day of commencement. then, summer summer times.

lately i've been wandering around watching the lights reflect off the puddles and thinking and smiling and not much else. my work week is done, which is nice, but terrible at the same time as i am almost completely broke and have ten more days until i'm paid. last weekend i spent money, too, which i'm pretty mad at myself about because i have absolutely nothing to spare.
i want to save up at least twenty-five hundo before next august and i really don't think that's going to happen which is shitty as hell because i have this crazy idea in the back of my head to go to germany. a flight there only costs roughly $700 roundtrip, but i at the same time need to save up money for airfare to costa rica, which is also roughly in that range, except for one way. and then i need to save up airfare from costa rica to nicaragua, and then from nicaragua back home. and then for trip expenses and all the like. it's madcrazy and i hate it.
i'm super stressed about being able to find a summer job too. i want to pick up another job on campus, even. my savings is so gone from not having a job over winter break. i have roughly. . . well, nothing. yuck.
i hate thinking about it.